I had the pleasure of traveling this weekend to DC and sharing a space with some major trailblazers! Major politicians such as Maxine Waters, Jesse Jackson, Congressman Conyers, and so many others took a knee in support of Colin Kaepernick’s protest. Did a tear swell up in the corner of my eyes after watching the video of Micheal Thomas (from the dolphins)? Yes! After watching a clip of him breaking down while thinking of the safety of his children was beyond disturbing.
However, this trip with politicians was quite enlightening and inspiring. Hearing their stories of heavy, and visible, racism was quite disturbing. Learning more about racism and white supremacy is probably one of the most disheartening things that we experience as people of color. I am completely appalled to see that racism has been heightened due to the kind of leader we have an office. To see that there is REALLY an entire group of people in this country who have been supportive of the current president of the United States, and his actions, keeps me baffled. I can’t believe that there are fans of not only racism and bigotry but of a wicked heart issue. I’m disappointed because our country has allowed us to be set back years of when our grandparents were children.
White supremacists have no remorse or thought of parents, children, elderly, etc. The president of the United States has declared war through Twitter. Yet, his fight is with African American men who are silently and tastefully protesting. In my same timeline of social media, I find a fight of two African-American males while a group of our kind stand around supporting this behavior. While also seeing in last week’s timeline a biracial nine-year-old was hung (but survived) by other children of another race. So, the president of the US takes light of Korea’s minister planning to shoot down US planes. African Americans are still trying to prove an unnecessary point amongst ourselves, by "reading each other", when there’s already a point proven by this country not being quite fond of our kind. It’s disgusting on both sides.
Every morning I look in the mirror, as a woman of color, having to cover myself (with prayer) and my family for the color of our skin. I’ve even considered if I really want to bring children into such a wicked world. Donald Trump referred to African-American athletes as "sons of b*%<!es". He’s running this country as a 19 year old rich spoiled kid who takes jobs from people as if they’re toys. This comment wasn’t just to these innocent men but a direct remark to the mothers of these sons. There is absolutely no regard, and emphasis, given to the fact that Korea is planning to go to war with our country. Yet, we fight one another and keep posting about make up tutorials. When will we enlighten one another?
There’s so much confusion, hate, wickedness, etc. I’ve looked in the mirror and have promised myself to not be weak like some of my generation. I’ve affirmed myself that I will not allow myself room to fight with my sister of brother of color. Not only of color, but not even with any other minorities. I’ve affirmed myself that my mother is not a female dog but she is a queen. My father is a godly black man doing whatever it takes to keep his family tougher. I must demand respect with how I carry myself, and what I put into the earth. I’ve affirmed myself that I am beautiful. Black is the absorption of all colors. My forefathers put their lives on the line for this country. The confederate flag is not the only issue. The American flag has become one too.
It’s so unfortunate, because out of all of the preaching and motivational speeches we still aren’t strong enough within ourselves to partner and bond with someone else of our kind. We’ve become selfish.
When will we change? When will we have the strength, glue, knowledge, tenacity and more like the generations before? When will we stop fighting each other and not only respond when something is wrong but continuously support for one another when it’s time to boycott? But when will it be all year round? Not the boycott, but the support.
Take a knee but check your heart!